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finally talked to the girl about whats up with us, and well, its not exactly what I wanted out of it, but we're still cool, so i guess all is well.

the highlight was the 3 cliches in a row I got during the course of the (very brief) conversation about us.

"I really like you too, bu..."

"I'm just not quite ready for a relationship at this point in my life, with school starting up and all that"

"I'm really commitment phobic" which = "its not you, its me" in case y'all were wondering.

I feel like this should bother me more than it is, I mean, this is the first girl in quite some time that I've really cared for, not just been interested in.

But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that "being together" was secondary to actually spending time together. i realized that I have more fun just kickin it with her and gus (her black lab) than I do doing just about anything else, which to me, signals, hey go after this one, she gets you. but at the same time, I feel like if its meant to happen, then it will (yet another cliche for ye olde journale) so I'm just gonna ploay it cool, keep it real, and see what happens, who knows, maybe we'll be sittin there one day and decide to elope in vegas, it could happen...

but realistically, this is a person that I'm lucky to have in my life, regardless of our official relationship title, so I'm just gonna leave it as such.



I'm sorry I've been kind of shitty at commenting/updating/being here in general, i've been busy as fuck with moving and school starting and all that jazz.
I'll try to be better