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so today has been emotional straining for me. first I thought my boy had lied to me. and then I thought things would end and I'd get hurt blah blah blah. the things your imagination can come up with. I've finally come to believe what he says and take it as the truth. of course there's a part in the back of my head that doesnt want to believe it. the part that thinks he'd do me wrong and WILL hurt me. but I'm trying to brush that aside and realize he would never do that to me.

if you're a girl you prolly understand my emotional trama. I still break down in tears when I think about it because..nothing's been solved yet.

I hate my past. all my past shitty relationships is what makes me think badly about my current one.

I'm in such a sad mood. *cry*

and there's no reason to be!! my boy is totally truthful with me and loving and would never hurt me. but..damn if I dont have that insecurity anyways.