time is not on my side lately.
i hate that feeling.
every day i give so much to something that others flourish from.
maybe i waste myself with useless things?
i want to spend more time with the people i care most about but it seems harder and harder to do.
lots of ridiculousness keeps getting in the way.
i have worked 3 17hour days this week.
monday. wednesday. friday.
the rest were just 12 & busyness.
im tired and i have lots to sort out and do.
my mind is swirling.
i want only one thing.
i want only to see one thing.
i want only to be with one.
i cannot.
i am saddened inside.
i have so many things that just keep being put off and left behind i wonder if they will survive?
looks like i will be occupied from monday till a week next saturday if everything turns out/fucks up.
i dont know if i can face it.
i dont know if i can bear to be apart. away. alone. again.
im getting into an emo art fag situation again. sorry.
i write but words dont flow.
i think but nothing makes sense.
i talk but nothing comes out.
i wasn't looking, but i have found it. and im not giving it away.
im now off to do fun stuff like get my haloween outfit and way too much fake blood! yay!
bloody mary's are the order of the day, but first i have to negociate couples with young children! christ.
x happy haloween x
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i hate that feeling.
every day i give so much to something that others flourish from.
maybe i waste myself with useless things?
i want to spend more time with the people i care most about but it seems harder and harder to do.
lots of ridiculousness keeps getting in the way.
i have worked 3 17hour days this week.
monday. wednesday. friday.
the rest were just 12 & busyness.
im tired and i have lots to sort out and do.
my mind is swirling.
i want only one thing.
i want only to see one thing.
i want only to be with one.
i cannot.
i am saddened inside.
i have so many things that just keep being put off and left behind i wonder if they will survive?
looks like i will be occupied from monday till a week next saturday if everything turns out/fucks up.
i dont know if i can face it.
i dont know if i can bear to be apart. away. alone. again.
im getting into an emo art fag situation again. sorry.
i write but words dont flow.
i think but nothing makes sense.
i talk but nothing comes out.
i wasn't looking, but i have found it. and im not giving it away.
im now off to do fun stuff like get my haloween outfit and way too much fake blood! yay!
bloody mary's are the order of the day, but first i have to negociate couples with young children! christ.
x happy haloween x
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roxysmash:
What are you for Halloween? I have skeleton arms, but I always have those. :/
roxysmash:
Jamie! Going to LA?? Visit Maxx! He was just here in Portland last night. He called me when I was laready in bed, so I didn't get to see him. You should call me. Now, or when you're in LA. 