I had a strange and scary dream last night... I know it was stress related due to my fight with my gf but the dream involved my mother. Here it is... but I warn you if you continue reading, it's pretty fucked up at the end. My best friend and his fiance (also an old friend) were in town... we were in a nature setting or a park just seeing the sights with the rest of my family(mother and her bf, sister, friends and myself). My mother was fighting with her boyfriend and I was very embarassed so we ended up separated. When we found each other again it was to leave the park but when my mother and her bf showed up she had beat him up and stabbed him in the back several times... keep reading... it gets really weird. He was alive but very injured. My mother was enraged and unruly and we left the park to get M (my mothers bf) medical attention for his wounds.... We all drove separatly and within the line of cars, because of the way I was parked I was the one car that decided to back up the lane but the lane. My mothers minivan was in infront (actually behind because I was reversing) of me and I just kept backing up... Heres the thing, the lane never ended and I never saw a spot to turn around. It kept getting harder and harder to keep my vehicle backing up straight. It was getting more and more bendy and the road was getting roughter and roughter filled with deep mud and potholes. I lost sight of my mothers van. I was wondering where she had gone and a because this was a dream it was revieled to me she had checked herself into a mental institution and there were all these crazy images of her strapped down with gause over her eyes... her face was contorting in snarls and curses with clenched teeth and spittle. The whole thing in B&W felt like a MManson video. Dr.s were preforming surgery on her cutting this large disformed growth (that she doesn't have in real life) away from her face... I found myself on the phone with her and between the snarls and curses she told me she loved me, that she was so proud of me, that she couldn't do this to her family anymore so she checked herself in to the asylum and there was one last thing... if I had wondered where she had gone when leaving the park... before checking herself in... she had impregnated herself by sleeping with my best friend so that I would always have something to remind me of her.... I was equally touched by the gesture and disturbed its insanity at the same time... Then I woke up... Please if you read this don't think I'm all messed up and crazy. I'm quite a normal guy with a normal job and a cat named Dave. I don't know why I posted this really... You can probably tell by the way its roughly hedged together I'm still waking up... I'm actually sitting here naked on the computer. Just rolled out of bed and started typing. it's extreamly screwed up but I just had to get it out of my head. I feel like I spent the night doing laps around my bed... Fuck... I need some breakfast.
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