Season's greetings.
Thanks for the encouragements to update more often.
My fingers get cold below 50 F, so I haven't been motivated in the last few weeks to conjure the magic moments reported in my October and November journal entries.
I also have a predisposition to self-censorship.
My central dilema is that I enjoy pretending far more than dealing with reality. It seems that everyone clamors for honesty and openess, and rails against dissemblance.
Dissembling, not being what I seem, seeming other than what I am, upsetting others expectations - these drive me, sometimes to brilliant creative breakthroughs, other times to self destructive impulses.
Be prepared, if you ever encounter me out there. Depending on the context, I may welcome you or shun you. It's not you, it's me. Do not fear me. Fearing me is my job, and I'm very good at it.
Cheers,
G.
Thanks for the encouragements to update more often.
My fingers get cold below 50 F, so I haven't been motivated in the last few weeks to conjure the magic moments reported in my October and November journal entries.
I also have a predisposition to self-censorship.
My central dilema is that I enjoy pretending far more than dealing with reality. It seems that everyone clamors for honesty and openess, and rails against dissemblance.
Dissembling, not being what I seem, seeming other than what I am, upsetting others expectations - these drive me, sometimes to brilliant creative breakthroughs, other times to self destructive impulses.
Be prepared, if you ever encounter me out there. Depending on the context, I may welcome you or shun you. It's not you, it's me. Do not fear me. Fearing me is my job, and I'm very good at it.
Cheers,
G.
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ps I had to look dissemble up in the dictionary.
xoxo