alright to clarify a few things.
my journal is not an open forum for your fire. you are the angriest girl ive ever met. i think you enjoy being angry.
so. i still have lingering threads of resentment. i mean shit. it was a recent and significant portion of my life. i think im entitled to a bit of emotion. im sorry im not utterly stoic.
its not like im still distraught. as a matter of fact, im extremely happy with my life as its going thus far...
im glad to have continued my process of learning and growing. i felt stagnant prior to november of this year. but ah, i am on a roll again. thats besides the point.
one little journal entry isnt an open invitation to use me as your scratching post. i was venting in a moment of discontent, in my own fuckin journal mind you. i happened to forget that this was your fucking site first and i have no business expressing anything less then pleasant toward an established member. right. ill just refrain from anything you might not want to hear. like the reflective nature of certain accusations. you pointed the finger at a mirror girl. not me.
as for encouraging other people to step in. thats bullshit also. i cant help noticing how succesfully you've recreated the highschool experience in relishing in a tiny bit of drama...over one fucking journal post.
reagardless im glad your doing for yourself what you need to be doing and i do think its the best thing for the unblanced self that you are.
chill with the hostile.
because i wont give you further room to direct.
im thinking theres either an immediate need to end my posting, just to cease the gratification your nature draws from hearing an instance of my meloncholy.
of course half of me, the taurian says fuck that im posting till i expire.
either way. ive nothing else to say on account of what happened.
my journal is not an open forum for your fire. you are the angriest girl ive ever met. i think you enjoy being angry.
so. i still have lingering threads of resentment. i mean shit. it was a recent and significant portion of my life. i think im entitled to a bit of emotion. im sorry im not utterly stoic.
its not like im still distraught. as a matter of fact, im extremely happy with my life as its going thus far...
im glad to have continued my process of learning and growing. i felt stagnant prior to november of this year. but ah, i am on a roll again. thats besides the point.
one little journal entry isnt an open invitation to use me as your scratching post. i was venting in a moment of discontent, in my own fuckin journal mind you. i happened to forget that this was your fucking site first and i have no business expressing anything less then pleasant toward an established member. right. ill just refrain from anything you might not want to hear. like the reflective nature of certain accusations. you pointed the finger at a mirror girl. not me.
as for encouraging other people to step in. thats bullshit also. i cant help noticing how succesfully you've recreated the highschool experience in relishing in a tiny bit of drama...over one fucking journal post.
reagardless im glad your doing for yourself what you need to be doing and i do think its the best thing for the unblanced self that you are.
chill with the hostile.
because i wont give you further room to direct.
im thinking theres either an immediate need to end my posting, just to cease the gratification your nature draws from hearing an instance of my meloncholy.
of course half of me, the taurian says fuck that im posting till i expire.
either way. ive nothing else to say on account of what happened.
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is that a de lempicka??
Yes, you were talking shit about me in your journal. As I recall, I said absolutely nothing about you in mine since we broke up. I expect the same decency.
And you know what Bloom? I really don't give a fuck. I don't hold anything back, whether it's passion or rage. You asked for this, so don't whine. I can fight however I damn well please.
And don't try to act so elitist and mature. Half the big words you use are misspelled anyway.
I'm sorry you feel so clingy and attached. Apparently Lena said the same thing to Heather, so i'm not the only one.
Get over it. Four dates doesn't mean i'm your wife.
And I'm sorry, but I really do feel like we had nothing in common.
And yes, you are labeled as another one of my psychotic exes. You try to use victimization and your "cutting problem" to manipulate people and it makes me sick. And when you can't have your way, you cry.
Of course my issues aren't yours. I'm way more sane than you, girlie. You need to let our stupid dating period go, it was only four dates and you make it out to be so much more. Go get another girlfriend and go away.
And when you get one, call her more than two times a month to let her know you like her.
You say you haven't even unleashed your capability to be vicious. Well, I really don't care because i'm not afraid of you. You're a little girl who pretends to be a dominatrix, yet you don't have any control of the situation.
Deny
Cry
Deny
Cry
Wow, they rhyme and they both suit you. Maybe you should write a poem about it.
[Edited on Feb 03, 2003]