Soim on my break from making the chillie for the tamales
My neck hurts, and Lenas mom comes to visit menowlena is my ex for those of you who dont know. Her mom has a heavy envelope that she says lena asked her to drop off
And I just force this smile but think oh god. Oh god.
And it cant help but remind me of how months ago lena was telling me that she was buying Jessica Christmas gifts, Jessica being an ex also, why, because she felt guilty pretty muchguilty for running off years ago on someone who didnt deserve it
And I think, is that what this is? Guilt in a green Christmas envelope?
Im so vex. See, were still supposed to be friendsbut, she treats me, the way she used to treat her other friends when we were still togethera flake, a big huge flake. And I dont need that. I have fake friends of convience at school and I dont need her to do it to. So I came upon the conclusion: Fuck Her
Im not messing around with maintaining this bull shitty still good friends faade anymore. Im just not.
But anyhowthere her mom is, smiling, and chatting, and talking with my mom even, and I give her our pork bone from the tamales for her dog, and I help her pick lemons from our trees to take home and still keep this smile on my face while I want to scream
YOUR DAUGHTER IS A HORRIBLE PERSON!
YOUR DAUGHTER IS DOING DRUGS AGAIN! AND SLEEPING WITH A 15 YEAR OLD!!!
Of courseI dont screamI bite my tounge, and smoulder in contempt
And ohnow that ive gotten all this out, I feel much better
Good thing I was feeling better when she JUST called right now.
It kept me from bitching her out on the phone while my mom was sitting across the room
Sigh.
I wish I could hold a grudge. I do.
Now, back to tamales. Weve cleaned the husks, cut up the queso, made the chillie and masa, now, we assemble. Mmm.
My neck hurts, and Lenas mom comes to visit menowlena is my ex for those of you who dont know. Her mom has a heavy envelope that she says lena asked her to drop off
And I just force this smile but think oh god. Oh god.
And it cant help but remind me of how months ago lena was telling me that she was buying Jessica Christmas gifts, Jessica being an ex also, why, because she felt guilty pretty muchguilty for running off years ago on someone who didnt deserve it
And I think, is that what this is? Guilt in a green Christmas envelope?
Im so vex. See, were still supposed to be friendsbut, she treats me, the way she used to treat her other friends when we were still togethera flake, a big huge flake. And I dont need that. I have fake friends of convience at school and I dont need her to do it to. So I came upon the conclusion: Fuck Her
Im not messing around with maintaining this bull shitty still good friends faade anymore. Im just not.
But anyhowthere her mom is, smiling, and chatting, and talking with my mom even, and I give her our pork bone from the tamales for her dog, and I help her pick lemons from our trees to take home and still keep this smile on my face while I want to scream
YOUR DAUGHTER IS A HORRIBLE PERSON!
YOUR DAUGHTER IS DOING DRUGS AGAIN! AND SLEEPING WITH A 15 YEAR OLD!!!
Of courseI dont screamI bite my tounge, and smoulder in contempt
And ohnow that ive gotten all this out, I feel much better
Good thing I was feeling better when she JUST called right now.
It kept me from bitching her out on the phone while my mom was sitting across the room
Sigh.
I wish I could hold a grudge. I do.
Now, back to tamales. Weve cleaned the husks, cut up the queso, made the chillie and masa, now, we assemble. Mmm.
Karma is in effect, what goes around comes around...that's why she gets a 15 year old and you get a b-femme!
wooot.
*smothers BFem with luvin* ;p