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rant of the week:

I want to get tattooed, not like that tat's I have now those of aesthetic or personal power - of comfort. I want to get in your face piercings, no more hiding my exentricities. I want to get sleaves, I wan't to find a symbol that is not purely offensife but one that exposes my own discomfort around sertain things, that makes others uncomfortable, that will keep me form ever being emplyoed by a "real" employer in a "real" job. I need to make it visually known that I am different and strange, no more confusion. My adaptability easely turns to conformity. To imediately inform those who have just met/seen my for the first time and to remind myself that I am different and need to be who ever that is. I want to mark myself as outside the system and not look back - civil dissobediance . . .