Well I think I've made a break through with what I think I want to do when I grow up.....I want to solve murders....yeah you've watched silence of the lambs one to many times you might say, but I feel a calling to it, and I feel I can do something, I'll be damned if Im some flat foot cop....I just want to jump right in and catch the bad guy that destroyed a life (and without even asking first!) I talked to someone that used to be a detective in the homicide dept....they said after a while it gets to you and that you become paranoid, and think that everybody is the murderer, So theres really nothing different from what I think now....Do you believe in destiny? Im not one that usually does, but this feels so right...why the fuck is that? nothing has really felt that way....guess even so this is going to dent, my social life...... guess I didn't expect to meet that special someone anyway..... 
. see ya later cowboy.
. see ya later cowboy.