First off I really suck at being a friend. It seems to be all about me me me wanting your comments yet I never give you all enough comments that you deserve. I really do have a lot of reasons for missing a lot of your alls blogs but I try not to make excuses for anything and should really work on finding a way to read all your blogs.
Okay I just got back from my therapy group and it really has put things in perspective that i've known forever and have been debating on whether to face it once school is out or not. Well I made my decision tonight and I'm going to face it. With the economy the way it is and the way the world is in general right now. Taking a year out of my life to go to japan no matter how awesome of an experience it would be isn't a viable option right now, nor will it be any good for my mental state. As much as I would love to land a Japanese girl lol if I do it it will be as Tiffany not Sean. So over Christmas break I'm going to sit down the family and talk to them all. I'm going to explain where I am at and where I want to be with this transition stuff. I'll then ask them what I can do to help them with the situation and go from there. I don't want to lose them and I don't want kicked out of the house. Lord knows I can't afford to live on my own right now, but I can't live as a prisoner in my own body and my own room anymore. I have to be me and the more i realize that once i opened the door and let my real self out just once the more my real self surfaces and anytime i'm being Sean it doesn't feel right its like i'm putting on an act.
Oh i gotta go because i've got to get up early to finish a 8page paper and do some japanese homework in the morning and i'm exhausted!
<3
Tiff
Okay I just got back from my therapy group and it really has put things in perspective that i've known forever and have been debating on whether to face it once school is out or not. Well I made my decision tonight and I'm going to face it. With the economy the way it is and the way the world is in general right now. Taking a year out of my life to go to japan no matter how awesome of an experience it would be isn't a viable option right now, nor will it be any good for my mental state. As much as I would love to land a Japanese girl lol if I do it it will be as Tiffany not Sean. So over Christmas break I'm going to sit down the family and talk to them all. I'm going to explain where I am at and where I want to be with this transition stuff. I'll then ask them what I can do to help them with the situation and go from there. I don't want to lose them and I don't want kicked out of the house. Lord knows I can't afford to live on my own right now, but I can't live as a prisoner in my own body and my own room anymore. I have to be me and the more i realize that once i opened the door and let my real self out just once the more my real self surfaces and anytime i'm being Sean it doesn't feel right its like i'm putting on an act.
Oh i gotta go because i've got to get up early to finish a 8page paper and do some japanese homework in the morning and i'm exhausted!
<3
Tiff
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I can totally understand your decision on not going to Japan. I think you will only enjoy that kind of trip fully when you're completely YOU. And let's face it; busy as you are in your life, with both work and school; you can't get the fact you're not complete out of your mind. And i think you'll never find inner piece if you don't act on your urge to become a woman fully. It's the most important thing in life, being whoever you want to be.
Good luck with your family, i really hope they'll understand.