I was reminded earlier this evening by an email from my aunt that today would have been my mom's birthday... Hard to believe she has been gone for almost 11 years now...
I had been wondering why I had kept thinking back to pieces of my past, and thinking of her all week, and it just never triggered.. But I guess somewhere in the back of my so-called mind I knew that her birthday was coming up..
Sometimes I really miss her.. It's usually when I think back to her and I sitting at the kitchen table after school/work and telling each other the jokes and silly thoughts we had heard or thought up over the course of the day... Or sharing a few laughs watching Married with Children or a few other shows on the tube over the years... It was scarey how similar her and I were when it came to our sense of humor and our edge of silliness..
Of course, I don't miss the arguing and fighting that she and I also did on a regular basis.. I think we started arguing about 30 seconds after I started talking...
I can't help wondering how much different things would have been if they had figured out that I had ADHD way back when I was a kid, rather than not figuring it out until about 2 weeks before my 33rd birthday... I would imagine that our relationship may have been different, as would my scholastic career... I wouldn't be surprised if my self esteem, friendships and dating relationships would have been better, and I probably wouldn't have the two ex-wives if I had known about it....
It was a hellishly busy week at work for me, but that isn't really a bad thing, since I like to keep busy when I am there.. Of course, losing the day to whatever it was that sidelined me on wednesday did not help at all.. (Not sure if it was a reaction to the meds the doctor gave me for my back, the first session of physio I went for on tuesday after work, or food poisoning, but I woke up around 2am on wednesday, and didn't get back to sleep until a nap mid afternoon...)
I'm hoping to be able to get to the Twwly/VonScotch Stag and Doe, since it would be cool to meet some more SG folks. But, for now I am not sure.. It would be cool if a couple more folks from the London area were planning on going so we could set up a car pool or convoy...
I had been wondering why I had kept thinking back to pieces of my past, and thinking of her all week, and it just never triggered.. But I guess somewhere in the back of my so-called mind I knew that her birthday was coming up..
Sometimes I really miss her.. It's usually when I think back to her and I sitting at the kitchen table after school/work and telling each other the jokes and silly thoughts we had heard or thought up over the course of the day... Or sharing a few laughs watching Married with Children or a few other shows on the tube over the years... It was scarey how similar her and I were when it came to our sense of humor and our edge of silliness..
Of course, I don't miss the arguing and fighting that she and I also did on a regular basis.. I think we started arguing about 30 seconds after I started talking...
I can't help wondering how much different things would have been if they had figured out that I had ADHD way back when I was a kid, rather than not figuring it out until about 2 weeks before my 33rd birthday... I would imagine that our relationship may have been different, as would my scholastic career... I wouldn't be surprised if my self esteem, friendships and dating relationships would have been better, and I probably wouldn't have the two ex-wives if I had known about it....
It was a hellishly busy week at work for me, but that isn't really a bad thing, since I like to keep busy when I am there.. Of course, losing the day to whatever it was that sidelined me on wednesday did not help at all.. (Not sure if it was a reaction to the meds the doctor gave me for my back, the first session of physio I went for on tuesday after work, or food poisoning, but I woke up around 2am on wednesday, and didn't get back to sleep until a nap mid afternoon...)
I'm hoping to be able to get to the Twwly/VonScotch Stag and Doe, since it would be cool to meet some more SG folks. But, for now I am not sure.. It would be cool if a couple more folks from the London area were planning on going so we could set up a car pool or convoy...
sorry, no stag and doe for me :/