this is probably a pretty morose morbid blog, but you guys can take it as part of me or suck it. :D
My bestie has just asked if I will move out with her, and I honestly dont know what to do. I love her to bits but i feel like we are growing apart and have been for sometime now. Ive start wholeheartedly doing this and Im trying, I suppose for want of a better term, trying to figure out who I am. I feel everyday more and moe disconnected from my best friends, they are both in committed long term relationships and spend a lot of time together or with their boyfriends which I fully support. I often find that they have hung out together and not invited me, which doesn't bother me so much just makes me feel disconnected
However I feel because I can be a bit to honest sometimes somewhat of an outsider looking in. Like I did in high school and its not really something I want to be feeling. Anyway so my issue is that I fear that if I move out with my best friend, who is lovely but we can butt-heads alot, I fear that its going to divide us exponentially faster and that we may end up hating each other rather then just growing apart.
If I didnt need to move out so much it would be a no brainier. Its moments like this I miss my ex whos complete inability to think emotionally would be able to separate the muck out. That actually makes him sound coldhearted, he isn't he just functioned on a different level to everyone. He was lovely.
anyway enough boring shit. just got my Chaplin inspired set back its pretty cute and for a last minute set I am pretty proud of it!!! it kind of looks kinky at points but i had shitloads of fun shooting it and there are some jawdropping shots in it
