twistedkittenfur

I realized it has be a long time since I have been active on the site.
ALOT of life changing things have been happening.
first the positive, I bought a new car, I have 2 jobs and both are going swimmingly, and I have a personal trainer for free mostly.

but with the good comes the bad. My cousin passed away he was 23 it was extremely unexpected it was thought he OD'd.
My best friend left for the air force and I haven't heard from him in like a month. and we used to speak all the time, I know he will contact me as soon as he can but that doesn't mean I don't miss him.
and I have stupid stuipidly been messing around with the ex because I guess i feel lonely and i want the void filled of the absents of my friend and this ex just messes me up, emotionally abusive is the understatement of the century. I know i can fix this one but there is a fundamentally flawed part of my brain that craves male companionship. but I seem to be a good bit emotionally removed from the situation.

I should start school for spring semester the idea is to stay as busy as possible that I don't have time for the ex. bring on the busy work