twistedkittenfur

today sucked. today something happened that has not happened in awhile. today something happened that I didn't think was possible anymore. today a boy made me cry. I don't think he meant to. I don't think he knows he did it. and I don't think anyone one on earth knows how much crying pisses me off, especially over something that hurt my heart. So, I am done with the boy that I liked from work. Right now I'm so pissed I don't even really wanna be friends with him. I shall Ignore him till forever. because i have no interest in shit. and I'm hurt and sad and when those emotions take over they are very quickly replaced by anger. I made a mistake in believing that I had enough scar tissue around my heart to not care about anyone anymore. I'm going to delve back into a time of seclusion, because really people just suck. I don't want to be hurt over stupid things anymore and I refuse to. So he's seen my friendly side, now he'll see my I don't want anything to do with you side, and weather he realized he hurt my feelings or not, I don't care because as a rule of thumb I don't want anyone close enough to make it hurt. it's not really his fault, but I never ever wanna feel what I felt when I left athens ever again and If that means I have to be alone forever fine by me. No high is worth the impending heartache and no matter how callused you think you heart has become when something new hurts it it always slices down to the fleshy tender part. I can wait for this shit to be pure fucking scar tissue already. I'm really ready to not care anymore.

and I'm so angry that I let something this strange happen.
because we are just friend nothing has ever happened between us, not even a kiss on the cheek.
but he still lives with his parents and his parents think something is going on between us
and it's really not
he says he's cleared it up with them but they don't believe him
so we shouldn't hang out as much....is what he said
so sad face day