twistedkittenfur

sooooo my computer ate it. Its gone....dead.....bye bye.......it took it up the ass with a chainsaw. buttttttt my lovely and wonderful Juju has agreed to loan his laptop to me until I can get a replacement.......I loves him. and he's taking me to san fran......I would marry this man if it wasn't for the whole gay thing. (I don't understand it tastes like rainbows and sawdust). Anyway the point is I realize that I am an internet junkie and when you take it away from me I become grumpy and out of touch. I have a wish list that is the size of texas right now, and it's making me sad. Also I have a painful crush on the boy at work. I really don't know what to do about it. The situation is that I work a minimum wage job, but I live like 35 mins drive from work. but it's the only job I could find at the time. Plus it's a plush ass job. anyway everyone else lives like within 15 mins or so. So I feel like it would be weird to try to hang out after work. and this town isn't really set up to go to a bar or anything. So I'm frustrated, He seems so cool and I really wanna get to know him better but I am really stumped as to how to go about it. It's literally making me crazy. The kind were I laugh a little to loudly at his lame ass jokes, and it makes me wanna cut my throat. I know I just need to stop. But he's sooooo cute and full of awesome that I hurts. and it's been a moment since I've crushed this hard on a boy!......-sigh- damn it man I just wanna fuck him a little. maybe get some coffee.....