twistedkittenfur

I feel like all I've been doing lately is whining. I broke up with the boy last night, or rather this morning. it wasn't anything upsetting it just wasn't a good match. I don't know if I should but I really want to come off birth control pills now. I'm having terrible mood swing and I know what's going on but I don't have much control over it. and it makes me feel weak, for example I was lying down to try and go to sleep and I just start crying. I feel worthless right now. AND IT"S JUST hormones.....it's only been one month though. Idk...I just want...........nothing. I just want to stop this. I want to make it stop. because I know that outwardly I'm keeping it cool and most people don't know what's going on. but on the inside I feel nothing but frustration, and anger and I'm bottling it all up and I don't know what to do. I don't wanna talk about it to anyone because I feel like I'm a constant downer. but I just don't want to feel depressed anymore. so lets see how well I can Isolate myself till this goes away. some advice an ex gave me once was just go to bed when you wake up in the morning it will be better. if only it was that easy.