twistedkittenfur

today is the day that I'm going to end up dancing around a fire nude. anyone in the area wanna join. I have eaten 2 xanax and it's about to be four and then I'm going to smoke this bong and then later i may post the video. I might not i depends on how stupid it is. but i'm now leaving to go buy some beer. and if dude guy is there maybe a couple of hits of E. and this is how I choose to deal with the realization that my ex is getting married soon. we have only been apart for 3 months and he was the only boy that I have ever truly loved. my heart hurts and I don't even know what to do about it. i'm not sure my heart can take it anymore 3 months I should be able to move on, but it seems like ever dude that i've found round here has been sorta stalkerish crazy. i need to move out of state bad but isn't that just running away from your problems. but were i am now sometimes I just wanna.....i don't even know. I guess I just sorta need to vent. but he's only been apart from me for 3 months we dated for 2 years and this new girl and him are getting married after 3 months, am i really that bad. i sorta just wish I wouldn't wake up tomorrow.