twistedcobra

Been dancing on the dole. Suffocating and probably developing some kind of cancer in this dust pit hell called Sacramento. No fucking jobs anywhere (except the occasional blow job I get.) Orgies with my girlfriend and our roommate. Haven't drank in almost a month. It's making me edgy. Can't get a cat because the landlord won't let us have one. Watching this city turn into a yuppie and marketing wet dream. The only noticeable thing is the recent interest in underground hip-hop here. Maybe there's hope. I thought El-P from Co. Flow was excellent and then I heard Mr Lif who is a fucking genius. Still hasn't gotten too hot yet, thank god. haven't watched tv in a month and a half. Looking at people in this city; lifeless, greedy and spoiled zombies. Everyone is afraid of sex. Most don't do it at all and others only do it when they are too drunk to remember it. What a shitty existence. And they'll all hooked on some drug, any drug, and act like pompous bratty little bitches. Mommy didn't give them enough attention, And Dad wasn't there. So they run in pacts creating their own little dysfunctional families. It's sick. The more they make this city look like the suburbs, the more it acts like a ghetto. I hate May. I'm not on Zoloft or Paxcil, but sometimes, god, I wish I was. I guess I'm a masochist and want to to be fully conscious of my suffering. Building up to one big panic attack.
Don't worry. I probably still love you anyway. Trixie and I want to find more cute girls to make out with. It's fun. A friend of mine, she said that that was illegal to do. My girlfriend and I making out with another girl is "illegal". I geuss I missed the city council meeting on that one. We like to do it anyway, we like frozen yogurt, we like to go for walks and pet all the cats that run up to us from their porches. We like to go to Chinese restaurants. We like to paint and do music and play and fuck. Feed squirrels in the park. Take baths together. Enjoy that we are still young, and still look young for as old as we are. We like to be fucking honest with ourselves and eachother, Trixie has more porno videos than I do. We want to do benefit shows for the local "no kill" cat shelter. It's called Happy Tails. I love cats. I love them more than most people. Cats are better than people. How many people do you know who can shit in a box full of sand and make it look classy? Yeah, thought so.
Hey, it's all good. Let's try to enjoy ourselves. I hope you are. Just don't lie to yourself. Stay sexy. Even when you are old.