twistedcobra

Had the most bizarre dreams last night...I think my subconscious is trying to tell me something...have you ever had a nightmare where you found yourself back in high school and you are always just a few credits short of graduating? I do about every 6 months and I think to myself in the dream "I'm almost 30 and I'm still in high school! What the fuck! Get me out of here!"
Obviously I need some closure...
My girlfriend and I have been feeling very lonely lately, we live in downtown Sacramento, which used to be somewhat cultural and artisticly diverse, within the last few years the city planners have managed to turn it into the suburbs with all the problems and attitudes of the suburbs...we go for walks in our nice neighborhood at night, like we always do, and now cops will slow down and watch us, one time a cop followed us for a few blocks! This has never happened before to me here, but now it has happened 3 times within a month. We don't even look that "weird" or whatever. However the cops never seem to be busy with the crank dealers that live a few blocks away...go figure. It's not just that, but it seems to be very difficult to find anyone with any intelligence to talk to...we want to meet other intellectual artists and people who are being honest with themselves...it's a ghost town. Most people here only care about partying...escaping. And yet we are trapped in a sticky web of mediocrity and mundanity. We want to meet intelligent, creative, beautiful, honest people and my girlfriend needs to meet other women with these qualities so she doesn't feel like an anomoly of the female species...
Her and I have been doing music together which helps, if you can call it music! It's all about art therapy and lifestyle as art.