So, in anticipation for my first photoshoot to become a SuicideGirl hopeful, I took a trip to Victoria's Secret. Which is surprising, simply because I'm not used to sexy lingerie. Don't get me wrong, I love garter belts and lacy bras that push boobs up and panties that show off an amazing ass. I've just always thought that I didn't have the right body to wear those things.
I think that mostly every woman has something about her body that she doesn't like. Whether she thinks her nose is too pointy, her hair is too wild, or her feet are too big. For me, it's my stomach and my thighs. I started to eat a lot in high school, simply because of stress and eating was a way for me to cope. Needless to say, over about two years I went from 140 pounds and a flat stomach to 175 pounds and a slightly rounded stomach with one pair of love handles. I used to look in the mirror and hate my body. I used to think that no one would find me attractive. I didn't even find myself attractive. I'd be upset that I couldn't wear shorts or wear tight fitting dresses.
But then I thought, "Who cares what I look like?" Yeah, some people might not find me attractive. But not everyone has the same idea of attractiveness. Some people like girls who don't have tattoos or piercings. There are some who love them.. (I'm looking at you, members!) Some people out there are going to find me attractive. And there are there who won't. I don't care what anyone else thinks about my body. I have grown to love myself, no matter what size I am. So I went ahead and bought a garter belt, stockings, a lacy bra and panties that show off an amazing ass. And I can't wait to show everyone in my photos. <3
To all those girls who are members of the site and want to become a SuicideGirl but think that they aren't good enough for some reason: You're beautiful. As long as you love yourself and your body, no one can tell you otherwise, and don't let anyone's opinion sway you. Go for it! :)
