twistedblack

Well today is my sis birthday and i'm not cheery and i should be it is her day. But i'm not i don't feel all happy i'm kinda like this . I was thinking of my life and i just kept going how pathetic of a existence i have. Anwayz i'm just going to be gloomy. It sucks when u realize ur getting older and ur dreams aren't realistic and can never be met. I don't know what i want to do non of the things i wanted to do can't be done and its just reality. And i don't know i am going to spend today thinking and i know it is shelfish to do this on her b-day but i seriously need some alone time.