twistedblack

I know its late but i want to make this entry. I finished chobits and that in itself is no big deal. After watching it i rembered why i didn't like the ending. Not because it wasn't good but because of how it made me feel. It made me realise that inside me there was a warm heart that wants to love for someone. I have heard people say that u shouldn't live your life like u must have another person to validate yourself. But i say what kind of life is waking up and going each day just to provide for yourself and get you to the next day. When i die i want to have had somebody that i had provided for and cared for and loved. For that sounds like the meaning of life to me. Is to have someone not becasue they are needed to validate you. But because they give more meaning to your life and without them life is well dull. Life with a pearson you love that you care for and charish. Something that you would never change in your life. Someone that is worth walking down the hardships of life just to meet. I might not know what i want to be right now but i do know if i don't work hard now i will fail and not be capable of providing for the women i meet and fall in love for. It has been a long time since my heart warmed to the touch of a girl and felt happiness just by her sight, smell, or voice. I know that even though i say i'm dark and hatred that deep down i'm waiting for the girl that will see my front and embrace my kind hearted loving side and make me the man i am suposed to be. The woman I will love will not validate but yet be my answer to the meaning of life. I know that there is alot of people out there that say love is fake and there is evidence that it doesnt work. But it is my dream to find the one and that is all the evidence i need for me. I don't care if my parents relationship didn't work out because i am not them. I will find the one meant for me.