So anywayz new look and all kinda there. I miss my hair but i know that i didn't really change. THe girls no longer look at me like eww freak they just don't look at me that much. A few flirt with me but there the ones that any guy i think could get. Well I ran around work singing songs and dancing with a broom stick. 
I know goofy but the songs where definatly pissed off. I stopped and started laughing cuz lauren thought dressign me like a prep would make this darkness inside of me go away and my hart come back. LOL so wrong was she. Anwayz i thought of mahalo and i was like i'm over u but i miss you. I know i cna date again but i just kinda u know wish it was with her but oh well i realize it won't be with her. I was thinking if i really wanna go through with this new look thing and decided who cares it's just clothes i'm still going to wear all black every know and then. I"M SUCH A POSER LOL. I so pose as a prep. OH well i miss SG PROM cuz i felt like i was kinda at home and i was actually capable of hitting on females. But today when i start to they are like let me tell u my day and just don't flirt just talk like we are friends. DAMNIT my new look is like lets be friends I'm not looking for new freinds well it couldn't hurt but i'd rather have a girl to hold at night and lay under the stars with. I want a girl to look into her eyes and get lost in them. I want a girl that gives me the strength i need to take on the world. I want a girl that wants me for whats inside and not for the outside. I want something more than a one night stand or a 2 month relationship. I want a good year at least. I want one that i can look back on and smile and say i amd soo glad i went out with her or who knows look back and smile and then look beside me to see her still with me in my bed but this time not as a girl friend but as a wife. I want something more than these childish relationships. I am way to mature for my age. Maybe i should just u know try and be like the rest of the kids my age.
i made myself sad and no one is on-line to cheer me up. I see lots of girls on sg that i go i would love to meet them they seem just like what i search for. But they live in another state or they live in a city far away or even in another country. Times like this i think maybe i'm just destined to never have some one to make me happy and make every day a good day just by seeing there face. OH well the lonly life is meant for me wether or not it is the thing for me.
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and and i'm goign to bed fuck u world
AND FOR ALL U FUCKS THAT CARE HERE IS WHAT I DID 4TH JULY
I WORKED FOR 13 HOURS STRAIGHT AND THE NEXT DAY 12. FUCKY YEA. OH YEA AND A NEIGHBOR WAS MOWING OUT NEAR MY WINDOW AND IT KEPT ME AWAKE UNTILL 5 SO I DIDN'T HAVE ANY TIME TO SLEEP AND GO DO THINGS BEFORE WORK. SO FUCK OFF HOLLIDAYS AND FUCK OFF HUMAN BEINGS.
I know goofy but the songs where definatly pissed off. I stopped and started laughing cuz lauren thought dressign me like a prep would make this darkness inside of me go away and my hart come back. LOL so wrong was she. Anwayz i thought of mahalo and i was like i'm over u but i miss you. I know i cna date again but i just kinda u know wish it was with her but oh well i realize it won't be with her. I was thinking if i really wanna go through with this new look thing and decided who cares it's just clothes i'm still going to wear all black every know and then. I"M SUCH A POSER LOL. I so pose as a prep. OH well i miss SG PROM cuz i felt like i was kinda at home and i was actually capable of hitting on females. But today when i start to they are like let me tell u my day and just don't flirt just talk like we are friends. DAMNIT my new look is like lets be friends I'm not looking for new freinds well it couldn't hurt but i'd rather have a girl to hold at night and lay under the stars with. I want a girl to look into her eyes and get lost in them. I want a girl that gives me the strength i need to take on the world. I want a girl that wants me for whats inside and not for the outside. I want something more than a one night stand or a 2 month relationship. I want a good year at least. I want one that i can look back on and smile and say i amd soo glad i went out with her or who knows look back and smile and then look beside me to see her still with me in my bed but this time not as a girl friend but as a wife. I want something more than these childish relationships. I am way to mature for my age. Maybe i should just u know try and be like the rest of the kids my age.
i made myself sad and no one is on-line to cheer me up. I see lots of girls on sg that i go i would love to meet them they seem just like what i search for. But they live in another state or they live in a city far away or even in another country. Times like this i think maybe i'm just destined to never have some one to make me happy and make every day a good day just by seeing there face. OH well the lonly life is meant for me wether or not it is the thing for me.
edit to say
and and i'm goign to bed fuck u world
AND FOR ALL U FUCKS THAT CARE HERE IS WHAT I DID 4TH JULY
I WORKED FOR 13 HOURS STRAIGHT AND THE NEXT DAY 12. FUCKY YEA. OH YEA AND A NEIGHBOR WAS MOWING OUT NEAR MY WINDOW AND IT KEPT ME AWAKE UNTILL 5 SO I DIDN'T HAVE ANY TIME TO SLEEP AND GO DO THINGS BEFORE WORK. SO FUCK OFF HOLLIDAYS AND FUCK OFF HUMAN BEINGS.
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That made me laugh!! aww, don't be sad. I don't like it when my friends are sad. i'm here if you need to talk.