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im exhausted but i cant sleep. i decided at 10pm to get into bed and turn off the lights, but nothing came of it. i just layed there and thought and didn't sleep. so i got up, feeling that just laying there was kinda useless. but being awake when im exhausted is useless too because i cant do anything but wish i was sleeping. there's too much buzzing around in my brain right now. too many ideas. too much mental unrest.

i went for a very long walk today and visited some places i havn't been too in a long while. i walked through Yorkville and past my old house on Bishop St. the new people painted the shutters and got a better mailbox. then i walked along Dupont, past some very posh shops and wondered why people shop there. i walked back thru the Yorkville townhouses and into The Annex. i think i bought a coffee somewhere along Bloor St. Then i took Habourd west to Ossington and back over thru Little Italy and Little Portugal back to The Watermelon Factory. all this after a lunch shift at work.

i wish my mind would agree with my body and just shut down for a while.