twilight1

Another spaghetti night. I feel like Christi Alley in the commercial on showtime for their upcoming "Fat Actress". Except instead of needing more butter, I need more sauce. I bet I could eat more than the bitch. I challenge you, Christi Alley, with your massiveness to my tinyness and fantastic metabolism. Let the gluttony begin.

So this is my shitty emo song of the day:

The time
I would spend with pictures
I would not send
I watched you go
From left to right
I followed you all night
Across my blinds
You'll change your mind
Come Monday and
Turn your back on me
You'll take your steps away
With hesitance
Take your steps
Away from me
I'm making my peace
Making it with distance
Maybe that's a big mistake
You know I'm thinking of you
I miss you
You'll change your mind
Come Monday and
Turn your back on me
You'll take your steps away
With hesitance
You'll take your steps
Away from me
You'll change your mind
Come Monday and
Turn your back on me
Take your steps away
With hesitance
Take your steps
Away from me

You know, its been over a year. And a spiteful year at that, not just on my part. I've been and been living with someone else, for some time now. Not to say I'm not content, I couldnt ask for much more. But I guess once in a while you stumble upon some asshole who stays under your skin for next to an eternity. No matter how much cruel shit you put eachother through, or how much you taunt eachother, or all the things you use to rub in eachother's faces, sometimes I suppose you cant get enough. I cant help but wonder if the same goes for her. 3500 miles away, over a year since she left, another relationship later, and I still cant get her out of my head. Maybe I just wont let her out.

Crap now my foods cold. Cold, but still tastey. I think once wifey comes back and deamons stop gnawing at my uterus I'll feel a little better.

I want to be a SuicideGirl goddammit. Can you apply more than once?

On a completely different note, I'm thinking of posting some of my work once I can find a scanner. I wonder if my fragile ego will be able to withstand New pictures of the hair are also definitely on their way...

Now back to my gluttonous dinner.