twiggy

hey hey, im doing a little better with the dissertation having actually started it and having about 2000 words already. so, w00t for me I feel. Im having a bit of a hard time in my head at present but the more work I do the less time I have to pay attention to in my head crap (mainly the overwhelming urge to self harm, im sort of a not very active self harmer these days but i guess once you've used something to help you for ages your brain always sort of thinks.. well.. we could do that..) also, writin about eating disorders make me feel a bit on the blobby side, i've never suffered from one but the ironic thing is I started this dissertation (about the reasons for the rise in eating disorders and what part-if any- fashion images play) with the attitude that I ignore the images and im happy with myself. After looking at such images all day I am concerned that my thighs may soon be visable on an atlas.

Anyways, em, im fine really, just having a moan because im sad today. Im really looking forward to going to london in january and, erm, thats me today I guess.

this is an old pic of me i found on my mums computer from two years ago, just after i broke up with my ex, i guess I've changed a lot when i look at it, its been a bit of a rough couple of years but, erm, you guys have all been really nice and im sure it would have been a lot lonelier without you. (just in case im so crazy busy that i dont get a blog in before my christmas message. lol)



xxx