twiggy

yick, im trying to write project proposals for uni and have come to something of a grinding halt. I think I want to produce more work about body image and mental health but its a bit heavy and its a bit personal so it can be a bit draining to make work about it. But then in the long run actually quite healthy, if that makes sense? My other projects are pretty much sorted one of them is a typology of pianos (sooo so exciting) which sounded like a great idea at the time but I've sort of been bullied by my tutor into shooting on 5x4 film, this, is a gigantic camera a lot like those favored by the victorians, it has bellows and a glass focusing screen and takes film about the size of a post card. Also I only used it once before and that was in the studio with a lot of supervision, oh, and its very expensive to get the film fo it so I'll need to shoot polaroids to make sure I'm doing it right and they are...you guessed it.. fucking extortionately priced. On the other hand, if I pull it off it'll look great. The other one is making a cover image for the book atonement, I already have an idea for that. Its really just the first one, when they give us these wide open briefs and say you can do pretty much whatever its like 'eep! I have no idea!'

Anyway, other than that I'm good, we had two of my sister's friends visiting from Vancouver (actually Vancouver Island which I had assumed was small but is actually about as long as Scotland) and we took them for a drive up to Inverary and for some good traditional pub food. Both too scared to try the haggis tho


see, it was all picturesque and such. Anyway, I'd better get back to work.
Oh, I bloody got another message from my ex although this time he seemed to be trying to be nice. I haven't replied, and I won't (jesus, I'm done with self harm, right?) but its hard not to wonder what he wants.

Anyway.
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