*Caution: Major venting ahead*
THINGS ARE MOVING WAY TOO FUCKING FAST.
I've been in school almost 5 years and I've gotten nowhere. I've spent lots of money and I have no degree and I HATE my major. I've switched my major so many times it's embarassing. What the fuck am I supposed to do??? Why am I in school if I don't know what to do??? I'm wasting time and money and it s all to please my fucking parents. At the same time, what would I do if I weren't in school? Work 2 days a week at blockbuster?? That's right....these fucks give me two days a week now...but that's a whole other rant.
What brought this rant on you ask? Heh...well...it's kinda funny. You see, it is now 10:21 pm EST and I have a paper due tomorrow at 10:10 EST and I haven't even started it. I haven't even picked a topic. I am so fuckng exhausted right now and I just.....can't get myself into doing it. I hate my fucking major...there is no motivation to do well in it. Normally, I would drop the class. But this is an integral class in my graduating. It's a prerequisite for almost most every required class in my major. If I drop it I might as well drop all of my classes. If I drop all of my classes my parents will have my ass. I'm such a lazy fuck. But at the same time....I'm getting tired of working hard towards no goal. This is what I get for listening to my aunt. She said when she didn't know what to do for a living her mother told her to be a school psychologist. She said she makes tons of money and gets summers off and what-not. That sounded attractive to me. But I want to be passionate about something. I'm not passionate about psychology. I sit in class and roll my eyes at half the stuff we're learning.
I dunno....I'm so fucking confused. I feel completely suffocated and trapped and stupid.
For some reason I'm going to let this one paper dictate the rest of my life. I can always continue the class and not do the paper. I wonder if I could still get at least a C in the class. OR I SHOULD JUST DO THE FUCKING PAPER. i wanna go to sleep.
THINGS ARE MOVING WAY TOO FUCKING FAST.
I've been in school almost 5 years and I've gotten nowhere. I've spent lots of money and I have no degree and I HATE my major. I've switched my major so many times it's embarassing. What the fuck am I supposed to do??? Why am I in school if I don't know what to do??? I'm wasting time and money and it s all to please my fucking parents. At the same time, what would I do if I weren't in school? Work 2 days a week at blockbuster?? That's right....these fucks give me two days a week now...but that's a whole other rant.
What brought this rant on you ask? Heh...well...it's kinda funny. You see, it is now 10:21 pm EST and I have a paper due tomorrow at 10:10 EST and I haven't even started it. I haven't even picked a topic. I am so fuckng exhausted right now and I just.....can't get myself into doing it. I hate my fucking major...there is no motivation to do well in it. Normally, I would drop the class. But this is an integral class in my graduating. It's a prerequisite for almost most every required class in my major. If I drop it I might as well drop all of my classes. If I drop all of my classes my parents will have my ass. I'm such a lazy fuck. But at the same time....I'm getting tired of working hard towards no goal. This is what I get for listening to my aunt. She said when she didn't know what to do for a living her mother told her to be a school psychologist. She said she makes tons of money and gets summers off and what-not. That sounded attractive to me. But I want to be passionate about something. I'm not passionate about psychology. I sit in class and roll my eyes at half the stuff we're learning.
I dunno....I'm so fucking confused. I feel completely suffocated and trapped and stupid.
For some reason I'm going to let this one paper dictate the rest of my life. I can always continue the class and not do the paper. I wonder if I could still get at least a C in the class. OR I SHOULD JUST DO THE FUCKING PAPER. i wanna go to sleep.
cunninglinquist:
your paper should be on 5 years in school and it sucks