turtlepower

fuck sugar. i got 2 new plaid button up shirts i bought for myself 2nd hand. since this is the time to talk about materialistic stuff, ill go ahead and mention my moms got me a chanel purse. its fake as hell cause i cant justify anyone spending 2 g's on a fucking bag. but its big and not modest, and thats what im going for. ill wear it w/ my doorknocker earrings i got for $.99 and gold grill to complete the look.


holidays make me think about marriage in some roundabout way. until i have more life experience in this area, i wont shut the door on anything, but at this point, i cant picture myself as a wife. all the things i assosciate with that are all the things i dont possess in my personality. (i think) it seems like an awful lot of pressure to put on 2 people. and of course, living with someone who's been through the experience also affects the way i see it. the only problem i would have with never getting married is the titles put on each other. "girlfriend" usually isnt taken as seriously as "wife" in my mind and i always thought probably in other peoples minds. not as much respect i guess? i dont know. ive already committed as much of me as i know how to the person im with, so how is that any different than getting in front of people and vowing to do it for the rest of my life? ive already said it to him, so how is that any different?

maybe i need to quit thinking like such a vagina tonight.