life is dull and boring. It really sucks. I don't have that zest for life that i once had. I have no one to share all my ideas with and all that other shit. I work too much. I'm up to bout 60something hours. and yeah the money is good but fuck, what's the price I'm goin to pay. Sometimes i feel like i never leave my truck. all day long i'm staring out a windshield watching people live the life i wish i had. i want something to be excited about. I have nothing and i feel like nothing 