turkmcallister

I haven't been here in a while...

things are good. I'm on a break from school - two weeks until the summer semester begins and it's a much needed break. the stress of last semester was out of hand. I strive to be the best I can be and it can take a toll. I went to the doctor and I've the beginnings of an ulcer. the product of alot of stress, an enormous amount of coffee, and aspirin for a sore throat. it's getting better. my doctor told me to stay off caffine for two weeks! it hasn't been that bad, though. I've cheated a little and in the morning I allow myself one cup of green tea and thats it. I feel good though. out of my four classes a got three A's and one B. I'm satisfied with that.

I've got a lot of things organized and cleaned - I took a mountain of recycling back to the recycling center that has been building up for months. the bills are paid. all my shit is in order.

I've been spending five hour stints at the music building playing the piano and recording. it's wonderful. It's one of my favorite places - those small practice rooms. it's basically a sound proof closet with a piano and you can lose yourself in there. time just melts away. especially right now between semesters when there's no one else around and I have the run of the place. I absolutely love it. I play until I'm sweaty and my arms and hands hurt.

I miss my ex. we go back and forth. I don't know what will become of all it. I find her to be a little gem. nobody else seems to notice, even her, but she is. there's no one else like her. she's got tons of problems but, you know, she gets me and I think I get her. we've got some work to do. active love is labor as hal hartley said. which movie was that? the unbelievable truth? I don't remember.

ah, well. I'm having a nice pale ale and listening to Beck's Sea Changes. it's one of my favorites. I guess I'm doing fine.