tura_satana

I'm so poopy right now..

I left.. I left my friends hanging. I guess they're my friends.. But anyway I couldn't function. Didn't want to talk. Couldn't stick around.

I hate this fucking journal because I feel like I can't post anything without being like "everyone look at me" like some little attention whore.. which I'm not. Its like.. I mean.. its good for people that know you to know whats going on with you.. and why you may be acting a certain way, but thats it. I'm not looking for attention or sympathy or for anyone to cry over my problems.

I feel like I can't really post my mind. I feel like a con-man. Like.. how are you supposed to feel when you read it? I don't expect you to do or say anything.. But are you supposed to pretend that nothing's wrong? I dunno. Fuck it.

Certain people I can't stand right now because they are little immature responsabilityless bitches who blame me for their fuckups and try to manipulate me into feeling like crap for it.. and I'm losing him to them. And it turns my stomach. Not just cuz I can't stand them.. but cuz I cant imagine being against him. I don't want to. But there's nothing I can do to make him stay. Its his decision and its not an unreasonable one. I just don't like it. At all.

He'd rather be with them. I can't make him stay. Something else for them to throw in my face. The immature responsabilityless bitches have won.

Makes me wanna not be involved anymore. Makes me wanna just get rid of the damn thing. Find something else in my life to focus on.. alone. Again.