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Lately my feelings are popping in my paintings
"La huida fallida" (failed escape) acrylic on wood 25x35cm


I can't believe how unlucky I am lately! Who said if you're unlucky in love you should be lucky in the rest. That's the silliest think ever!
If I would begin to tell my long murphy's last 2 weeks list, it would just fill 2 journal pages, but it's like 1step -> 1 bad think happens, amazing.
On top, when I need money the most, everything that happens is an expense. Last one: I leave my car 10 min in a very hidden street for the first time, where nobody ever past, where there's car parked every day, all day, in front of a friend's bar (they told me the cops never pass there). Mine got towed! 135 plus 90 fine.
I'm gonna sink my head in the sand and wait for a while.....
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12th of July
a new one that, again, transmits how I feel:
"L'quilibriste" (the tightrope walker)
Acrylic on wood 19x24cm


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10th of July: I had caipirinha in the afternoon in a small harbour with that cute girl I kissed once, (she now has a boyfriend) and it was good to spent my first real single time laughing and getting drunk with somebody that doesn't belong to my previous life.

I have a new commisioned painting project, hope this one is going to be done, I desesperately need money now (separated accounts, lots of expenses and too long without getting money entry)
If anyone knows somebody that would buy my art, just show him my website, and get in contact with me.

I'll probably do my first website for a friend's gallery (not my speciallity, but whatever comes). A CD cover, Maybe some clothes logos as well, but nothing tangible... gasp. After 20 years I'll even have to work as bar tender overnight again if they pick me.
That's a huge start from scratch OMFG at 45!
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9th July
"Quel est le chemin maintenant?" acrylic on wood 35x49cm
and that's the way I feel, "what's the path to follow now?"
17 years with the same woman, and now a new life, it's thrilling and frightening at the same time. Vertigo. I'm so sad on one hand, but I'm happy on the other. We became more friends than couple, and now we decided to leave it at friends only... Hey SG girls I'm free again, hey don't push so hard I'm still fragile...
I know it's silly to write that, not too much people read my journal, there's very few SG girls close enough to meet, and anyway I'm probably too old for that.
Fridday night big party on Barcelona's beach,
We where there a bunch of friend and my ex-wife/new-friend, kind of weird. Explaining the issue to them, everybody understood. All of them think it's going to be difficult but maybe not for us. Actually yesterday was almost the same as another friday night all together, just the fact whe're not a couple anymore. If it remains like that, in not too much from now we're gone give advice each other on which guy or girl is good for the other. Makes sense?