ttoomuch

Yesterday I went to Madrid to dismount my second exhibition at the same time, (I had one in Tarifa until yesterday as well) This is how my car looked in the street with my 2x2m painting in the back:



I didn't sell one single piece!
I'm pretty fed up of everything.
People that know me usually say I'm a quite nice person, honest, cool and talented,
Why everything is always going so wrong for me, Do I deserve that?
Everybody is telling me I'm very good painter, & good photographer, and use to tell me the same when I was advertising art director (and creative director)
Why is it so dificult to sell a painting? why is it so fucking complicated to get a photo shooting?, why somebody decided that more than 40 in advertising is too old (in europe)? even if you're doing a great job.
I'm creating this new jewelry brand with my girlfriend,
The same fucking process is happening, everybody love our stuff, but every single step we're making is a hole we're falling into, Gosh! everything goes wrong all the time: providers that work bad, treat us bad, courrier services that normaly are the most reliable, never arrives or arrives late, people that were ment to work for us in production don't appear anymore after one day of production, and so on and so on.
Even as a couple it's fucked up, my girlfriend is almost everyday sick (not her fault) if it's not the belly it's her back or flu or nerves or something else. I love her and take care of her but that's not a love story as it should be.
Last time we could make love was december 25th
I don't deserve this at all. It's just not fair.