my new openness seems to be inspiring quite a change in my environment. instead of rushing through when i went to buy milk for work today, i stopped and chatted with one of the girls. it took me a few minutes to realize she was flirting with me.... usually, i'm so distant and shy that only a few brave souls will bother. i've found that,...
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i'm enjoying the calm while i have it.
tomorrow, my eccentric friend leif and his boyfriend are coming to town for gay pride weekend. i miss the boy; he's one of those rare people that i can really relax with and be myself, and whenever we get together, we start building ideas off each other (though admittedly, not much ever comes of it.) knowing him,...
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tomorrow, my eccentric friend leif and his boyfriend are coming to town for gay pride weekend. i miss the boy; he's one of those rare people that i can really relax with and be myself, and whenever we get together, we start building ideas off each other (though admittedly, not much ever comes of it.) knowing him,...
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yay! my mood has improved today. it took some effort, but i forced myself to realize the beauty around me. i nitpick, a lot, and usually the bad things, which gets quite depressing if i don't check myself. so i decided to nitpick the good things, and now i feel much better.
i'm reading a book about queen elizabeth. she is my idol. which is...
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i'm reading a book about queen elizabeth. she is my idol. which is...
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extremeloser:
well thats good, being in a bad mood is no good... too many goods
i have to take my brother back today. which makes it sound like he's a movie or something, heh. on one hand, i really love hanging out with him; my brothers are very important to me, and since my other brother hates me (long story), its extra salve on the wound to have the 8 year old looking up to me so much. on the...
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joyrider:
since you asked, he's 20. he and i are quite different, but very close. he's hopefully moving to portland in the summer of 03.
oh, he's got a journal at http://metaballo.diaryland.com.
oh, he's got a journal at http://metaballo.diaryland.com.
joyrider:
well, it's sort of a move up in the world for me. i lived in arizona, and then reno, so in comparison portland is pretty damn cool.
saw lane's show last night. my little brother dragged me to the front, so we had perfect seating to see the whole thing. i was really, really impressed. my little brother loved it, too. and we played tag right after the show, chasing each other over and around the bleachers. i haven't played tag in too long.
i met lane in person for the first...
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i met lane in person for the first...
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joyrider:
glad you met lane; sounds like that was a...positive experience. 
i got too much sun too. went to the japanese and rose gardens today over in washington park and got burned. weird, since i have enough melanin to resist it usually. i hope i don't peel. ergh.
i got too much sun too. went to the japanese and rose gardens today over in washington park and got burned. weird, since i have enough melanin to resist it usually. i hope i don't peel. ergh.
"david"
(for michael)
divinely inspired.
not a david
but fashioned like one.
emits a low hum,
a pheromone rum
that causes temporary sexual insanity.
licked by the flames of lust-
those delicious flames.
this distance has me killing kittens
that don't deserve to die.
marble-made man
with a touch like warm honey.
fingers that tingle
and find places the gods hide
within the warm folds...
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(for michael)
divinely inspired.
not a david
but fashioned like one.
emits a low hum,
a pheromone rum
that causes temporary sexual insanity.
licked by the flames of lust-
those delicious flames.
this distance has me killing kittens
that don't deserve to die.
marble-made man
with a touch like warm honey.
fingers that tingle
and find places the gods hide
within the warm folds...
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joyrider:
you turn wicked phrases. i'm glad i get to read your stuff.
tryptamine_____:
wow, thanks guys. *blush*
binary, O said to submit writing to spooky.
binary, O said to submit writing to spooky.
i am so proud of myself! my personal redemption came today in the form of a swedish couple at my work. i informed them, as i had with the previous customers, that i am studying swedish, only this time, i actually managed to say a few things. the man said, "vi ses i sverige" -we'll see you in sweden. i replied "frhoppningsvis" -hopefully! its such...
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joyrider:
good lifeaffirming things aren't small. 
okay, so this picture isn't that great. its over 2 years old, and i actually still went to raves on a regular basis then. but its me, in all my wide-eyed, bottle-hugging glory. heh.
i'm super excited about this coming friday. it is the beginning of the four day vacation that i'm taking to hang out with my little brother, its the solstice, and my...
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i'm super excited about this coming friday. it is the beginning of the four day vacation that i'm taking to hang out with my little brother, its the solstice, and my...
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whee! my roommate's birthday is tonight, so we're having a ninja party! i am a red ninja, just cuz i have red pj's and a red kimono...
i must go join the party now.
i must go join the party now.
i've been dreaming about sweden again, both when i'm asleep and when i'm awake. at this point, its just a mirage to a thirsty girl in the desert though, which makes me pensive and introverted.
my little brother came in on the plane yesterday. i was surprised to find that he knew who invader zim is; we had a nice little chat about that where...
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my little brother came in on the plane yesterday. i was surprised to find that he knew who invader zim is; we had a nice little chat about that where...
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twelvis:
good old lainey.
sweden is worth dreaming about! i wanna live in socialist paradise...well, social democratic paradise.
sweden is worth dreaming about! i wanna live in socialist paradise...well, social democratic paradise.
tryptamine_____:
heh. i didn't think about that, laine. i do think that maggie and marie are pretty hot. in fact, i'd say they are #4 & #5.
but that was just last nite.
shyness is nice and shyness can stop you...oh, sorry. un-shyness is hard to fake.thats rad that you're opening up to people. people rock. and you rock, too.