tryptamine_____

a little history first: back in december, i met a girl named ashley. we hung out. i thought she was seriously the coolest chick i'd ever met. we kissed, but before things could progress any further, she disappeared. she had been about to move when we met, so i didn't know where she lived, and i would leave her messages on her cell phone but never got a reply. her friends didn't know where she was either. it was very strange and sudden, with no indication on her part that anything wierd was going on, and rather crushing.

so, i tried to deal with it as best i could, and continued my life.

today was the gay pride parade, and of course i attended with my friends. but at the rally afterward, i lost everyone, so i observed the masses for awhile and then fell asleep in the grass, in the middle of a huge lawn at volunteer park where other people were sitting around as well. when i woke up, i looked around to see if any of my friends were in sight, since i could see pretty far away without having to move from where i was. that was when i saw ashley. i watched her for awhile, trying to collect myself and think of what to say. finally, i ignored my pounding heart and walked over to her. she was actually really happy to see me, and we sat and talked for awhile. apparently, her grandmother died, and she has spent the past 6 months in st. louis with her family. she's only been back for 2 weeks. we talked about death a lot, since both of us had been touched by it in the past year. and i invited her to the pimps and ho's fourth of july party my roommate and i are throwing. i'm so happy to have her back in my life. i just wish i could have been there for her, instead of being left to wonder what had happened to her.

have you ever had someone disappear suddenly from your life?