tryptamine_____

i have to take my brother back today. which makes it sound like he's a movie or something, heh. on one hand, i really love hanging out with him; my brothers are very important to me, and since my other brother hates me (long story), its extra salve on the wound to have the 8 year old looking up to me so much. on the other hand, i'm a very private person. there's nothing like spending 4 days straight with a kid to realize what a reclusive, cranky, emotional mess you are. or how lonely you are.

so i'm going to go before i bleed my acidic loneliness all over the keyboard.