a friend of mine who was in portland for a month came back about a week ago. i've been trying to avoid him; at one point, i told him i had feelings for him, but now, a little more than a month later, they seem to have disappeared. how do you tell someone something like that?
but then we hung out today, and the whole time i was in a foul mood. he kept asking me what was wrong, if i was mad at him. i'm not, though. i'm mad at myself for not keeping my big mouth shut.
it didn't help that i had swedish tourists for customers today. apparently, faced with a real live swedish-speaking person, i can't remember any of the swedish i've learned in the past 5 months. i was really hard on myself for that, too.
but then we hung out today, and the whole time i was in a foul mood. he kept asking me what was wrong, if i was mad at him. i'm not, though. i'm mad at myself for not keeping my big mouth shut.
it didn't help that i had swedish tourists for customers today. apparently, faced with a real live swedish-speaking person, i can't remember any of the swedish i've learned in the past 5 months. i was really hard on myself for that, too.
hatefulerin:
you've been learning swedish? that's awesome. oh, and you can't be hard on yourself for choking at that moment. learning a language and using it with native speakers are verrry different.
tryptamine_____:
thanks, erin. you're right, i shouldn't be so hard on myself. i've only been studying it for a few months, and i'm shy anyway.
