this is the 4th time within the past couple of months that this has happened to me. i meet someone, start to like them, they give me the impression that they really like me, and then they just never call me back. what the fuck??? what am i supposed to feel?? what am i supposed to think??? this fucking sucks. i keep asking myself, am...
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in a pensive, restless mood. i don't have to work until 10 am tomorrow, so i've got all this extra time and nothing to fill it with but circular thoughts. i try to think about something else besides tony, but my thoughts always come back to him in some way. i know from experience that the only way to stop this is to talk to...
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martyr13:
you should definately wait for him to call. don't succumb to the urge. fight it off, wait for him to call and you will appreciate it more when he does.......anyways....how could he not call you back!
alpha:
foreign lip gloss is sticky. the proverbial glamour theat glimmers is irrespectively naught without irony.
thanks for your comments, guys. i talked to one of my coworkers extensively today about tony, in order to soothe the beast of my concsience, and we came to the conclusion that it would not be a bad thing for me to pursue him, but that i should be wary all the same. besides, me being the idealist and romantic that i am, i simply...
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cellophane:
i love pasta. and stuff with garlic.
and capitol hill is one of the many fine spots for any range of fine sg gatherings and activities.
and capitol hill is one of the many fine spots for any range of fine sg gatherings and activities.
christine3782:
I'll never top the shark, will I.
I like almost any meal that someone else makes for me, or any meal that ends in cake or pie or cookies or ice cream. Other than that...hmmm...mac and cheese, good steaks, sauteed green beans, brie on bread, chips and salsa and sour cream, stroganoff, many other things. Not all together though, of course. Too many things.
I like almost any meal that someone else makes for me, or any meal that ends in cake or pie or cookies or ice cream. Other than that...hmmm...mac and cheese, good steaks, sauteed green beans, brie on bread, chips and salsa and sour cream, stroganoff, many other things. Not all together though, of course. Too many things.
saturday, i went to visit my grandma. i've never really sat and just talked to her, alone, before. she is the coolest! in spite of the bypass surgery (in spite of her whole life, which has been a hard one) she is still alive and kicking. and i also got to see that my feistiness has been handed down in my family; its not just...
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squid_vicious:
Hey, I visited my grandparents on saturday too. My grandma's not doing too well. They're in an assisted living place (kinda like a big hotel/apartment building for sick old people) and they don't like it very much. My grandma is depressed and in pain and there doesn't seem to be much of anything anyone can do about it. It sucks.
...about your new friend: Hey, I thought you were gay. I didn't know that you're a double agent. Maybe I just picked up that impression from previous posts and journal entries. Oh well, you learn something new every day. Anyway, have fun with your new friend but remember, he's already demonstrated that he's not to be trusted.
...about your new friend: Hey, I thought you were gay. I didn't know that you're a double agent. Maybe I just picked up that impression from previous posts and journal entries. Oh well, you learn something new every day. Anyway, have fun with your new friend but remember, he's already demonstrated that he's not to be trusted.
jorganic:
Yes it is so awesome talkin to your elders about their lifes. Its so important to connect with them on a human to human level. I once had to do a project in High School where I interviewed my Grandfather about how he and my grandmother met, which was a beautiful experience because we got to talk about what he was like when he was my age. Old folks have so much great knowledge that they do not get to share often enough.
As for polyamory, its not true ployamory unless its honest and open, there should be no aspect of "cheating" in the equation. But hey, guilty nooky is sometimes the best, no?
As for polyamory, its not true ployamory unless its honest and open, there should be no aspect of "cheating" in the equation. But hey, guilty nooky is sometimes the best, no?
my mind is so confused these days, its a wonder i get anything done. oh wait, i DON'T get anything done....
i volunteered for hempfest and haven't gotten a reply. i really hate stoners sometimes, even if i do think weed should be legal.
paid my tuition today. bye bye to $343.75 for one class! please reassure me that its worth it; i'm still cringing....
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i volunteered for hempfest and haven't gotten a reply. i really hate stoners sometimes, even if i do think weed should be legal.
paid my tuition today. bye bye to $343.75 for one class! please reassure me that its worth it; i'm still cringing....
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joyrider:
my friends and i once spontaniously performed a bejing opera with sock puppets, an out-of-tune guitar, and a tube amp.
in all fairness, i should admit acid was invoved...
in all fairness, i should admit acid was invoved...
azura:
Hmm I can come to the bbq or I can get paid $17/hr to sit at a desk and take orders on the phone... hard choice 
No really I'd like to come but I really need the money$$$$$
Next time, I promise
-azura
No really I'd like to come but I really need the money$$$$$
Next time, I promise
-azura
okay. this is mostly for joyrider, and then i'm going to go do soemthing productive. it is a rough draft, but tell me what ya think:
i'm working night shift again. sitting there, reading a book without absorbing any of it, but daydreaming around the words instead. i turn the page, but i've lost the narrative.
no one comes in, in these early hours. this...
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i'm working night shift again. sitting there, reading a book without absorbing any of it, but daydreaming around the words instead. i turn the page, but i've lost the narrative.
no one comes in, in these early hours. this...
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tryptamine_____:
i started the laundry...
joyrider:
aye carumba!
i need to find someone to make out with immediately!
- enjoy your laundry.
i need to find someone to make out with immediately!
- enjoy your laundry.
saw a norwegian movie called "Elling" last night. (norwegian and swedish are supposedly two different languages, but i could understand a surprising amount of what they said, without the subtitles.) the first ten minutes or so, i was thinking "this is going to be such shit..." but by the end, i was hooked. its a good, good movie. go see it.
also discovered recently that...
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extremeloser:
all i have to say is,
come study at my house!
please
come study at my house!
please
joyrider:
your idea for an erotic fiction piece is outstanding. if you get around to writing it, please be sure to get me a copy...
"Ruling elites seem to have learned through the generations--consciously or not--that war makes them more secure against internal trouble."
"In premodern times, the maldistribution of wealth was accomplished by simple force. In modern times, exploitation is disguised--it is accomplished by law, which has the look of neutrality and fairness."
...from A People's History of the United States by Howard Zinn.
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"In premodern times, the maldistribution of wealth was accomplished by simple force. In modern times, exploitation is disguised--it is accomplished by law, which has the look of neutrality and fairness."
...from A People's History of the United States by Howard Zinn.
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ragingwhore42:
i'll make you a deal-you can have the pic that extremeloser sent me if you tell me how you guys know each other. my e mail is raging_whore42@yahoo.com
cellophane:
how could i forget to put that down as one of my favorite books?
what an excellent weekend! friday night, i went to lane's fire show. they played twice, and in between i went to zac's saloon and got really drunk, which i haven't done in a long time. afterwards, we went back to zac's and watched a really good punk show. i'm not that (outwardly) punk but i loved the energy that everyone had. its nice to see...
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echo:
About the beauty over brains comment I'd rather brains cause although you may think only beautiful people get hugs your wrong. When I was in time of need for some huggin action I got none other than my own family, and even that was wierd. Beauty sometimes makes other people standoffish. That sucks! I hate that a lot! Though a brainiac would already know the personal secrets of their souls and life and shine beauty from their core. Those are the people that get hugs.
Mental hug*
Mental hug*
extremeloser:
Well i dont know, i would have to say that iam semi-intelligent... and it really hasnt gotten me anywhere. Except for in trouble really. If i was beautiful it would get me everywhere and trust me, i watch those stupid prety kids all the time at work. They get what ever they want, jobs, cars, free stuff, dates, ... (which i have none of, well except for the job) not that iam bitter or anything, cause iam....
but iam still torn, i couldnt make that kind of decision
but iam still torn, i couldnt make that kind of decision
this silly, hypothetical question has been bugging me all day, and it will probably continue to harass me all weekend. given the choice between the two, and provided that choosing one means you do not get the other, which would you rather have, beauty, or intelligence?
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charlie_stars:
charm and personality only last 15 minutes after that you had better have a big dick or huge tits. so i'd have to go with beauty on this one.
F.A.B.
F.A.B.
jorganic:
to answer your follow-up question of "but what if you were so ugly nobody wanted to look at you",
think about what the intelligence equivalent to being so ugly no body will look at you is.
that would be a bad fucking scene.
; )
j
think about what the intelligence equivalent to being so ugly no body will look at you is.
that would be a bad fucking scene.
; )
j
ugh. i hate days like yesterday, days when i'm caught in a fog of emotion based disgust. but, my logic kicks in, and the usual psychoanalyzing begins, which eventually balances everything out (thank god) so that i can function without sneering at everything/one again.
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christine3782:
Mid to late Spetember. Depends when I get my shit together. I'm coming up to do an internship.
I made the foolish decision to take summer classes. I will never do this again.
I made the foolish decision to take summer classes. I will never do this again.
extremeloser:
i have been a sleepless zombie mode fog for the last week, it sucks i cant seem to get to sleep before 2 and then i usually wake up several hours earlier than i need too...
Yeah chocolate pudding! There almost isnt anything better to cheer you up more than pudding, except for maybe Bill Cosby which is odd they are somewhat related...
Yeah chocolate pudding! There almost isnt anything better to cheer you up more than pudding, except for maybe Bill Cosby which is odd they are somewhat related...
today, i am a bunch of adjectives:
bored
restless
lonely
perfectionistic
antisocial
bitchy
cuddly
distant
troubled
...and did i mention lonely?
i'm tired of my closest friends being so inaccessible, whether from distance or busy-ness. i am so tired of spending most of my free time alone. but i'm too proud and too perfectionistic to bother anyone with my desire for human companionship.
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bored
restless
lonely
perfectionistic
antisocial
bitchy
cuddly
distant
troubled
...and did i mention lonely?
i'm tired of my closest friends being so inaccessible, whether from distance or busy-ness. i am so tired of spending most of my free time alone. but i'm too proud and too perfectionistic to bother anyone with my desire for human companionship.
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extremeloser:
iam sick of my bestfriends, i live with them... i just yearn to get away from them at times... but i do long for a different kind of companionship, which iam beginning to think will never happen.. Iam going to become one of those, hermits who shuns the outside world and just watches old episodes of the dukes of hazard and Starsky and Hutch... eatting squirrel while widdling on my porch and playing my banjo... Well that doesnt sound too bad, mayb i should invest in some mountain land... hmmm..
christine3782:
You forgot to mention cute.
OK, so I don't really know if you were cute today, but I'm developing a crush on your pic. Ooh, I'm so creepy
OK, so I don't really know if you were cute today, but I'm developing a crush on your pic. Ooh, I'm so creepy
never let the social and emotional shortcomings of others cloud your perspective of yourself.
don't call him. its friday night, go out and get your mack on. maybe you will meet a nice swedish boy.
: )
it'll work out okay for you. if he's a chump, better to find out now rather than later.