truthwhore

I'm kind of in limbo right now. Been back from vacation for about a week now, need to find a job, but not motivated to do so. Maybe because it will mean that I'm really an adult making it by my own devices. I mean I can definitely use the money, but I hate the daily grind. And I shouldn't even be complaining because my profession includes substantial vacation time throughout the year.

I really don't like not knowing what's going to happen in the next month or so, which is probably the main reason I'm procrastinating? Kind of self-defeating, but there it is. I'm also not all that confident in my abilities, so that makes it difficult to want to sell myself to employers. There's always subbing, but that seems too much like suicide.

I know it will work out, I just don't see how yet.