trustpixellust

each time i read someones journal entry, and see the pictures of strange people and places, it makes me want to just get up and walk across the planet until i find somewhere that i can disappear in. moving to texas is sounding good to me, but the problem is, i know people down there.. seems so pointless then to go.. like i should just save extra and move to.. wherever. i wish there was a way for your mind to walk out of your body and its habits.. take on another form. hell, id rather haunt some place i didnt know than to just be living somewhere else but still be the "same person" feels like i value my life or my potential for living as someone else more than i value who i am now. keep wishing ill wake up and become someone else, that my brain will reset itself, but each day i wake up and its the exact same as before i went to sleep, even the thoughts running in my mind. if i fall asleep in the middle of thinking "when will someth.." ill wake up and finish it. "..ing change?" pretty pathetic.

this areah is getting under my skin and crawling along my veins.. getting its spidery legs all tangled up in them.

but im trying.. ill disappear soon.