It's Tuesday. The pain in my bowels is something as awful as when I was first diagnosed. Maybe a relapse? Maybe the medication isn't working anymore. Either way, I am trying to keep my composure.
I wish people around me would stop fighting. And it's not the interactive fighting. If that makes sense. They are all brooding with discontent and tension, only exchanging words for...
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I wish people around me would stop fighting. And it's not the interactive fighting. If that makes sense. They are all brooding with discontent and tension, only exchanging words for...
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It's the weekend yet again.
Went to a surprise birthday party for my good friend Deano last night and had a good time hanging out with Cassio. We had some food and had some drinks and sat around the fire and talked. Watched some stupid high school kids box each other. Always good for a laugh. Oh yeah Deano and his brother boxed too but...
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Went to a surprise birthday party for my good friend Deano last night and had a good time hanging out with Cassio. We had some food and had some drinks and sat around the fire and talked. Watched some stupid high school kids box each other. Always good for a laugh. Oh yeah Deano and his brother boxed too but...
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kelland:
I am going to watch Taking Lives tonight. Saw Sky Captain last night at the theatre with Jessica. It's an Angelina weekend!
I need a cell phone.
I need intellectual stimulation. I usually go for a walk. Or I read old journal entries of mine to see what a blathering idiot I was. haha. blathering idiot is the phrase of the week.
I need a cell phone.
I need intellectual stimulation. I usually go for a walk. Or I read old journal entries of mine to see what a blathering idiot I was. haha. blathering idiot is the phrase of the week.
cassiopeia:
My favorite was watching Masa's nose bleed and Drew (trying to) throw (ing) punches. Man oh man did I loathe those people. Sometimes I remember how easy my life was when I was in high school and wish I was still there. Thank god for parties like that because it smacks me with a dose of reality. Afterwards I think, "Thank fucking God I don't have to see these people everyday."
Aw. How cute. You're taking notes on teh stimulation. Thanks baby. I need it. We're going to have to go to a museum and discuss things. I just thought of that one today. I think that would be nice. Plus, it's been awhile since I've been to a museum.
I LOVE YOU!!!!
.... shit, I mean:
Aw. How cute. You're taking notes on teh stimulation. Thanks baby. I need it. We're going to have to go to a museum and discuss things. I just thought of that one today. I think that would be nice. Plus, it's been awhile since I've been to a museum.
I LOVE YOU!!!!
.... shit, I mean:
So Friday wasn't payday....It's all good.
When I do get paid it will be a bigger check so I can't wait.
Cassio and I are planning on going to Cleveland Friday and hopefully seeing the Derek Hess exhibit but we can't seem to find out the info about it. If anyone knows anything about it please let us know.
The weekend has been going pretty...
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When I do get paid it will be a bigger check so I can't wait.
Cassio and I are planning on going to Cleveland Friday and hopefully seeing the Derek Hess exhibit but we can't seem to find out the info about it. If anyone knows anything about it please let us know.
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cassiopeia:
"The sky is blue and all the leaves are green..."
burstandbloom:
well
im glad your head is on straight
hows the band
and junk like that
if you see derek hess
tell him gimpy mike hammer said hi
word
im glad your head is on straight
hows the band
and junk like that
if you see derek hess
tell him gimpy mike hammer said hi
word
Tomorrow is payday and I need a new belt and some damn socks. Cassio and I might go shopping together this weekend so that will be much fun.
There are some cd's I want to get as well:
Head Automatica - Decadence
Senses Fail - Let It Enfold You
There are some other ones that I don't remember right now... Any suggestions?
There are some cd's I want to get as well:
Head Automatica - Decadence
Senses Fail - Let It Enfold You
There are some other ones that I don't remember right now... Any suggestions?
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kelland:
oh yes. Muse: Absolution. Wee.
burstandbloom:
i hear Head Automatica is decent
you back from cali yet
im busy being unemployed in New Orleans right now
so i been outta touch
whats the word
?
you back from cali yet
im busy being unemployed in New Orleans right now
so i been outta touch
whats the word
?
The weekend has come and gone. Now it is Tuesday.
What exactly is the meaning of the word friend and/or friendship? If anyone knows, please tell me because I don't know and there are people that I need to educate on this matter.
I started working today at my old job at Vasil's!! YAY!!! It was cool to get back into the swing of doing...
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What exactly is the meaning of the word friend and/or friendship? If anyone knows, please tell me because I don't know and there are people that I need to educate on this matter.
I started working today at my old job at Vasil's!! YAY!!!
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kelland:
yo homie. sorry I missed you on Yahoo..
A friend is someone who gives you unconditional support. Someone who misses you when you're gone and appreciates you when you're around. Someone who does things for you without being asked and without expecting anything in return..
Kind of like me! haha.
Damn. Jessica and I were going to go to Vasil's to see if they needed people. Let me know if they ever do. Graphic design is my forte. But then again you might not want me there being a big weirdo and such.
To answer your question, Jessica, Brit, Katie Brillhart, another girl, and myself all quit this week. Earlier in the summer Abbey, Kristin Vaughn, the boss's son, and the boss's son's girlfriend all quit. I guess we're all crazy and they are the ones in the right, eh?
Don't ever go to DC again! THEY ARE EVIL!
When I grow up Jessica says I will be a serial killer.
I was planning on an ice cream truck driver but either works.
A friend is someone who gives you unconditional support. Someone who misses you when you're gone and appreciates you when you're around. Someone who does things for you without being asked and without expecting anything in return..
Kind of like me! haha.
Damn. Jessica and I were going to go to Vasil's to see if they needed people. Let me know if they ever do. Graphic design is my forte. But then again you might not want me there being a big weirdo and such.
To answer your question, Jessica, Brit, Katie Brillhart, another girl, and myself all quit this week. Earlier in the summer Abbey, Kristin Vaughn, the boss's son, and the boss's son's girlfriend all quit. I guess we're all crazy and they are the ones in the right, eh?
Don't ever go to DC again! THEY ARE EVIL!
When I grow up Jessica says I will be a serial killer.
I was planning on an ice cream truck driver but either works.
cassiopeia:
I want to be your wife when I grow up.
So...it's the start of the first weekend being back home. I had a good week being back, kept busy. Had an excellent dinner with Cassio and her family one night, hung out with my baby and watched a movie and talked and gave each other massages and made each other laugh alot another night. Spent some time with my friend Dean and helped him move...
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kelland:
the place = the pelican.
smuffy:
well labor day is supposedly the official last day of the summer. 
I tend to disagree though. as long as it's hot and humid it's summer for me.
I tend to disagree though. as long as it's hot and humid it's summer for me.
I am back. I have grown and learned some very important things and I know what I must do. I must take life by the horns and give it what for from behind. But anyway, I'm back in black and I couldn't be happier. There is nothing wrong with CA except for the fact that certain people are liars disguised as friends and the whole...
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cassiopeia:
aw. thank you sweetie. that made my day/night. I'm surprised you're up. Couldn't you sleep?
cassiopeia:
Did you go for a walk anyways?
Hello everyone!! This is the first time I have had the chance to get on a computer, so here it is!! I miss getting on here everyday and talking to people.
Call me a hypocrite call me a bastard, call me whatever you want but I miss Ohio people and B-town. There I said it now I can start to feel better about it.
I...
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Call me a hypocrite call me a bastard, call me whatever you want but I miss Ohio people and B-town. There I said it now I can start to feel better about it.
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burstandbloom:
whats wrong with california
im sure it takes a while to get used to like every other place
i am pretty ready to move and try new things though
so
im geared up to liking new places
so
maybe im skewed
nope
im definitely skewed iin general
ill let ya know where i end up
ill be in cleveland another 2 weeks or so
then im audi 5000
im sure it takes a while to get used to like every other place
i am pretty ready to move and try new things though
so
im geared up to liking new places
so
maybe im skewed
nope
im definitely skewed iin general
ill let ya know where i end up
ill be in cleveland another 2 weeks or so
then im audi 5000
kelland:
Heya again Sarcastic Samuel...
I had a blast at Curiosa, and I had a very close encounter with Geoff from Thursday! He is such a graceful performer! Jessica and I were in the front and he kept jumping into the audience from the stage but he didn't jump on our side. Anyway, Muse, Interpol, and The Cure were also very awesome. I just thought I would give you an update. I have been thinkin' of you guys lately and wishing you the best. I miss you. I hope the feeling is partially mutual. I miss our Yahoo convos and I'll miss you not being at school this year. Argh. 
OK, I'm done. *hugs*
I had a blast at Curiosa, and I had a very close encounter with Geoff from Thursday! He is such a graceful performer! Jessica and I were in the front and he kept jumping into the audience from the stage but he didn't jump on our side.
Anyway, Muse, Interpol, and The Cure were also very awesome. I just thought I would give you an update. I have been thinkin' of you guys lately and wishing you the best. I miss you. I hope the feeling is partially mutual. I miss our Yahoo convos and I'll miss you not being at school this year. Argh. OK, I'm done. *hugs*This will more than likely be my last journal for a while so I want to leave you all with some literature. I'm not sure who said this or what it is from but my friend and boss Tracy has it next to his computer on a piece of paper:
"When we feel stuck, going nowhere - even starting to slip backward - we may...
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burstandbloom:
i got a change coming up in my life
im psyched about it
change is good
im psyched about it
change is good
kelland:
certainly the ol' B-town is a little less lively without ya. hugs, kisses, velvet couches, etc. etc. 
When I am gone, break all ties and cut all strings. Cross this vast land to another coastline and build a new past-removing the pieces I never want to remember and adding pieces I will tell my children. This hole, this nothingness never seemed to be home and it has nothing for me and I want nothing from it. I gave it everything I had...
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burstandbloom:
rock and roll lives
mike hammer says
check out my reviews at www.lostatsea.net
[Edited on Jul 13, 2004 11:13PM]
mike hammer says
check out my reviews at www.lostatsea.net
[Edited on Jul 13, 2004 11:13PM]
smuffy:
Yeah what Cass said. 
You are a very strong person. A lot stronger than me. I fold and fuck up when I am under pressure. I say and do stupid things and feel sorry for myself. Everyone knows that. You somehow manage to deal and keep an optimistic nature that I have always admired. I wish I could be more like that.
I know that times are difficult for you family-wise. That is something you cannot control and something you should not let burden your soul. These people obviously cannot see how much it bothers you... so what you must do is know that you are better than the situation and you do not (and are not) apart of it. Things change and you will not always be obligated to live within the same walls. You will move on to bigger and better things. I know.
God is with you always... that sounds retarded to some people but I really believe it. Obviously you have done a lot with your life despite your illness. You have not let it stand in your way. And that is strength. That is a gift.
You know I really care about you and your well-being. I hope this comment didn't sound too preachy or something. I don't know. You know you always have a friend in me. I don't have to keep reminding you of that. You can talk to me if you ever want to.
That's what friends are for.
Take care. Feel better.
are you sick?