troubled_sweetie

Hey all...This is not a good time for me anymore...

I got into a huge ass fight with one of my closest friends (you know who you are) over voicing my own opinion. Needless to say, I doubt we're friends anymore. I don't know how I'm going to deal with this, but I guess maybe leaving here and other places may help. I'm way too depressed about the situation to talk about it. Everytime I even think about it, I cry. I just don't like being bitched at for expressing my opinion. Sometimes, yes, my opinions are bitchy, but that doesn't mean you have to bitch back. I don't want to lose the friendship, but it's not looking like I have a choice. This person doesn't even seem to want to talk about things. And I'm too upset to continue writing this. I am not apologizing for one damn thing that I said bc I was right to express myself. I just don't want a friendship to end over something like this. Yes, I know I have changed, but that's what depression and bipolar does to someone. I don't know how many times I have wanted to commit suicide and this person has talked me out of it. This person meant much more to me than just a friend. But I guess that doesn't matter. No I am not trying to be a bitch about anything. I am crying too much to try. I just wish that ppl would understand that I am who I am, and I do have mental disorders. I just wish that when things blow up in my head, others would understand and not blow up at me for blowing up. I am very sensitive and very tempermental. People need to learn to deal with that or otherwise don't be a part of my life. I still care about this friend a lot. I still love this friend a lot and it's going to take me a while to get myself back together, so I may not be on here as often, if at all.