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I went in and waited till 11 o'clock before going back to Triage shaking like a leaf due to the pain.
They rushed me in a stuck me on morphine drip.
So I spent the entire day feeling numb.
Then I did some horrible CT where they pumped my blood with dye, and it was the most fucked up feeling in the world. Plus CT machines are just freaky. period.
And the tests came back negative.
Nothing.
I think I'm going crazy.
My pain is just as bad as when I went in... and they wouldn't prescribe me painkillers.
But I finally got a date for the colonoscopy.
Next thursday.
This is my last chance.
If that comes back negative, I'm clearly insane and I'm going to shoot myself.