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My abdomen hurts so much right now.
Its like a stabbing pain in my right hip.
It is fucking horrible.
I toughed out the weekend.. I guess it is easier to ignore while I'm doing something.
But fuck man.
This hurts.
They're scheduling me for a colonoscopy.
I'm hoping there is nothing serious.
By this pain... I'm so worried there is.
I'm shaking, I can't eat.
It's like the food just wont fit in my stomach anymore.
I'm scared.
I'm always so fucking tired now.
This pain is just.. too much.
I can't keep ignoring this. I can't keep pretending I'm okay.