I am so sorry.... I have always been a dog person and had only one dog with whom I was inseparable. Then it started going blind from pesticides my dad used in our garden. I would sit with it every day because he would howl non-stop without company. He started getting better as the toxins wore off but for some reason my dad felt he needed to send him away. I came home one day and he was just gone. I was devastated. It's as if I had lost him to death, except it was worse because I didn't know where he was and how he was doing. I still don't know what happened to him. Heart break of my life.
But very recently I had a kitten walk into my life and now I'm a cat-lady convert. I am attached as hell to my kitty and he as well to me. I cannot imagine losing him but should it ever happen I would want him to be in my arms...