trocar

So you may be curious as to my wheelings and dealings over the last 430 sleeps, its been a hellva ride; lost love, found love, laid-off, finished school, went nomadic, traveled northand so many odd things in between. Am I any wiser you may ask? No, not especially. Have i upon deeper introspection of how my surroundings forced me to adapt the internal mechamisms of me to the new existence I inhabit, realized the profound struggle of objective versus subjective that resides in all of us? Not particularily. Do I have a full and lushious fro? On that I can be certain.

Divorce

A scary word often found in the pressence of lonliness, desperation, and helplessness. Yes I was there in 2008, cleaved from my wife of 8 years. I felt like I would die alone, never getting the chance to make another person happy in the way only a husband canI had two new roommates; pain and suffering. But soon I discovered that familiarity and comfort had replaced love and happiness and that this new break in the road was not so frightening, like a skittish fox it took some courage and faith to feed from the out-streched hand of freedom. I know for a fact that Im in a way better place now than if Id stayed in the marriage.

Brother

My brother keegan sauder is a pro rider for zero skateboards. Hes the one person thats always stood by me no matter what, and the words for how much I respect him simply dont exist. Even though hes in a land a vast geographical distance from me, really though he isnt. stay hard.

My spawn

I have two gorgeous children, my eldest daughter zada (11) and my first-born son pilot (5). They currently live with their mother several hundred kilometers from me, given the ping-pong ball nature of my work and school it was the best option to give them some type of stability. Hearing your kids grow-up on the phone is a special tortureI hate not being able to tuck them in at night, go to movies, and shred skateparks together. There are some things in life so unfair they twist your soul into pieces.

Academics

This spring, after 5 years of procrastination on a scale seen only in giant three-toed sloths, I finally got my embalmer/funeral directors licence5 years after I finished school. They phoned me my results as I was driving from edmonton after writing the test. I pulled-over, danced in the snow and challenged cows to greco-roman wrestling feats. My brain was on hold for that day. I found out last weekend I passed my 4th year of electrical school, so now Im a journeyman electrician. What does it all mean, well Im teathered to learning institutions no longer and Im in the market for some nifty new frames to impress idiotic individuals with pointless scraps of paper. Hooray for edjumaction.

Almost re-married

This up-coming allhallows eve I was to be united to a woman that I can only describe as the light of the universe, we connected both at low points in our romantic livesthe energy shared between us was something only aphrodite could weave. I loved her like no other and would have spent the rest of my time on this earth holding her hand. One catch however, this st. vaentines day she revealed that she never really loved me, didnt particularitly trust me, and wasnt even that physically attracted to yours truly. After being with together for almost two years it would seem to me that these were points that should have been addressed earlier in the coupling. Again I was destroyed. The funny thing about love, as revrend jimi hendrix sermises in bold as love, you have to posses the courage to let go and trust to fate that the love is trueyou have to be bold.

Fort mcmurray

Fuck this place, Im only here in this dump for moneya petroleum prostituteelectron escortwire whore. Im trapped here for the next few months being finanically responsible paying-off school and divorce debts. All I do is work, ride my bike, and work-outwell now that I have this medium and time I can fully express my angry, pent-up little self. Only a few more months and like the proverbial slave I can buy my freedomafter all this time I would perfer a william wallace-like orgy of battle, but what can you do.

Victoria BC

Ill see you there in the springFREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!