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I brought the kids to visit with their grandparents yesterday, and to play at the big park where they live that has an animal farm.. They played and laughed in the sun (fleeting this time of year..) and they pet some cute animals.
At the end of the day as I was getting ready to leave my mom pulled me aside and talked to me for a bit. She told me how that when I was little that she wishes that she could of been the type of mother I now am. She wanted me to know that although she loved me she regrets that she didn't do a very good job of protecting or mothering me.
I think this was very brave of her to admit to. And I was thankful of the compliment of me being a good mother.
I have overcome the faults of my upraising, there was alot of abuse and instability in my childhood...I have made peace with it all now and put it behind me, but it was nice to hear her admit that it wasn't a good way to grow up.
I think this is one of the benefits of parenting..you get to right all the wrongs that were done to you and break cycles of neglet and abuse.
I am thankful of every day that I am a mother and get to nurture and enjoy my kids. I really have to remember that when it gets too loud and nuts here, that this is a priveledge and I am not a martyr or perfect all the time but at least I am doing my best to do right by them.