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So it's Tuesday night. Fridy morning is when my scheduled caesarean is happening. Little boy number three (his is STILL UNNAMED!) will be born at 9 AM! I'm starting to freak out a little. I thought I'd be all cool because I've done all this twice now in the last three years but it's my first time having a c/s so there is all this unknown. There is the factor of caring properly for them all at once. Newborns are easy to take care of if you're not already chasing a toddler and changing a 1 year old at same time as said newborn. There is the stress factor of being in hospital longer too. I was always home the next day before. Now my Mom will be running my house and I realize now that I'm a control freak. I am a clen freak with a spotless house, who cooks EVERYTHING we eat and its all healthy and fresh foods, I make sure kids get outside for playdates at the park every day on top of all the chores. Plus we have art time and stuff too. I am kind of a perfectionist , which is why my days last 18 hours sometimes. I CANNOT ask my mom to do it the way I do, yet it kinda bugs me. wah wah..I feel like a whiner now.
Plus it just occured to me, because they are gonna use a general (due to epidural problems) I will be last to see my own baby. Thats lame.
Other than all that , I am excited...and nervous...and happy!