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This is one of those things that you don't want to realize later you should have paid more attention to (been there done that) you have to let it be what it will be, feel what you feel, and enjoy the hell out of it, it might suck if it get's cut off after the move, but at least you had something real in the meantime.

This is something that I learned after time, after holding myself back and pushing myself forward, after hating someone for the wrong reasons and loving them for the right ones. I think at 30 I finally realize what they mean when they say it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all, something I held myself away from for far to long in my life. (And now I'm a spinster, teehee)

Anyways live it up, we get one trip on this rock and if it's a life lesson you get, at least you get to have fun learning it.

Well I hope things are going better over there, I am a horrible penpal and keep intending to start to write and wind up doing something else, apaprently I am a crow constantly distracted by shiny things.

my grandmother has altheizmers and doesn't remember me anymore...i don't know how long she'll live. I can empathize with your pain, and I am here for you...if you ever need to talk

~J

I have to say that your "Captain C" has a much better management style then the people running the show down where I work. The fact that he was wiling to talk to you on a face to face basis and calmy discuss what you wanted to know, well the guys in charge over here could learn a lot from him. Over here they take the rules we have and get the "best" understanding of those rules and then put them into practice for us and expect us to blindly agree with them when some of the time they are changing expectations that someof these guyshave been lving up to for 20 plus years, but alas they are surprised when feathers are ruffled and that we choose to question their authority, it makes for entertainment at least.

Today was my dad's birthday and he got to be entertained by quite a bit of interactions between a trouble maker and our shop superintendent, so as long as he got a laugh, well that is all that matters.

As for silly little crushes, welcome to the club, I am the king of those.

Hey, with all that you are accomplishing, trust me I know that you are busy and harbor no ill will about getting no mail.

Thank you for the backup on liking the pop music, I don't know that I have heard the Amy Mcdonald you are talking about so I will have to keep my ears peeled for that.

Keep your head up.

Good call on Amy MacDonald, catchy tune, cute girl, accent, all three are win wins with me. I will definitely have to look into that more.

I agree with you about the guilty pleasure deal, I think by putting the guilty on there we have stigmatized it in a way, so yeah I have no guilty pleasures, just pleasures dammit.

Now that's just crazy talk.

Stick with it, you have my admiration. Plus there's that captain you like.

Glad you liked the paper, also glad you got the letter, I was going to ask if I should send it to a different address but I figured you would get it and then it would be more of a surprise this way.

Dirty thirty is going good so far, especially since I settled up with the railroad, got some debt off my back and got something set up for the future, it's a nice feeling to have the way the economy is now.

How's life on your side of the globe?

On the bright side, you're making me feel a lot better about the training I'm going through.

And that's a big "Nope" to comic book girl. Children are an immediate deal-breaker. Dating a girl like that is essentially telling her, "Hey, if this gets serious, the kid is not a problem for me. I'm willing to change my life to suit your child." And, fact is, I'm not. I'm really not willing to compromise on that point. There's that, plus a certain level of risk management - I don't know under what circumstances she got pregnant. There are women who poke holes in condoms and say they're on birth control when they're not in order to trap a man. She's probably not one of those, but for something that would never graduate beyond the strictly casual is it even worth the risk? I don't think it is.

You really should visit my blog. We can continue to chat there. Address is given in my blog entry.

Hope you're holding up alright. My new job training is pretty intense as well, but sounds like a cakewalk compared to what you just described.

I didn't realize it was looking so bleak over there. I guess I just have to hope it pulls through, I am close to a lot of people who have a lot invested in Ireland.

Now that's one hell of a home coming.

Indeed, I did. That bit was my favorite line. I really felt that the analysts saying it lacked a great, quotable line dropped the ball when they missed that one.

You'll have to give me some tips on picking up women.

Well congrats on finding a place to live, and scoring a bunch of free stuff.